My Letters to Friends

Super duper late post. This is before Christmas.

I was thinking of a gift to give my colleagues / friends as present for the upcoming Christmas.  Because I’m on a tight budget I must admit,  I thought to give them my personalized letter. That’s why on December 19 or 20, 2015, past midnight or early dawn I wrote my letters to them.

Letter to SIR SALDIVAR

Dear SIR SALDIVAR,

To the young and good-looking hepe of Lal-lo Police Station,  NAKS!

To the Daddy Jhong of Jawi, Wiky and Kyno JAWIKYNO and Ma’am Jackie,

To the leader of COC Clan of Policemen, he he he!

To Mino or Saldi of some…

We are grateful dahil sa mas magaan na pakikitungo between boss and employee. We could express our feelings and thoughts easily because of you being approachable and friendly. Thank you Sir for being a wonderful boss.

Merry Christmas Sir. May God Bless you and your loved ones with plenty of love, peace and prosperity. Wishing you good health pa pala.

Letter to SIR MERWIN

Dear SIR MERWIN,

To the tall, dark and handsome Deputy Chief of Police of Lal-lo Police Station,  NAKS!

YOU became a father again this year and you serve as the tatay to all of us. You also lead us to right path at sinusuway at naiinis kung may mali kaming ginagawa.

Sa sir na mahilig manlibre lalo na kapag pagkain. Hehehe!

Sa Hindi pangingiming magpakita at mag-express ng pagkainis at pagkatuwa, sa napaka-transparent na emosyon. Maraming salamat po Sir!

We are grateful that you are one of our leader because you are very kind and understanding to all our needs and excuses.

May this Christmas season brings you and your family joy and happiness.

Merry Christmas and a Prosperous New Year Sir MERWIN!

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Unexpected Moments

Who would expect that in my twenty eight years of existence that I would become part of a fandom of the most phenomenal love team of this millennial era. I will try to describe them and you’ll be the judge of how fanatic I am to this so-called AlDub marvel, sensation, wonder, rarity, nonpareil or whatever you call them. Phenomenal indeed.

This will explain why I had a silent adoration to Alden Richards since day one.

Enumerating my top six unexpected moments be like you’ll find out that my life is stagnant, boring, black and white. But you’ll also understand me with this moments how I savor even the simplest things in life. You’re curious why six? Because of my boring life that I can’t even enumerate more of my unexpected moments that’s why it’s only six.

1. When I was in high school, in the middle of our campaign for our student body organization,  I admitted something about crushes. That I had a crush to one of the candidates in our party. Because my group mates won’t stop teasing me that I even shouted his name and my feelings towards him out loud and all the students heard it. Imagine what bursting of emotions be like can do?

2. Can you imagine that my grandmothers and some family members would poke fun or tease me with what I now could consider as my childhood sweetheart. (He doesn’t know that I consider him that) I was really a child then. I actually had sore eyes back then but because their group had a concert in Cagayan that I need to attend. It was also storming to that moment and we encountered so many humps along the way. But as they say the show must go on. I was impressed with his piano skills hahaha confession.  He doesn’t know because I’m reluctant to talk to him until now. I think he doesn’t already remember me now. I can attest to that when we had the chance to meet again after more than a decade.

3. I didn’t celebrate my debut in the grandest way. No ball gown, no cotillion, no party, no escort, none everything. But it was still in my list of unexpected moments because I had a realization of me becoming independent. There was a sudden thinking to be independent, to be on my own now.

4. My capping celebration as a full pledge nurse trainee. My unexpected moment there was when my parents put my cap and see me clothed in a nurse attire. I realized that it’s the dream of my parents that I am actually fulfilling. Because of my love to them that I’m  setting aside my other dream to fulfill theirs. But at the end of the day, their happiness is my happiness and if their happiness is me finishing my nursing course then I would finish it.

5. Having a permanent work in a government agency and the most surprising is, in the PNP department wherein it is dominated by man. We all know that I’m a nurse in which I only became one because of my mission of not disappointing my parents but to be able to enjoy work from completely different avenue is my unexpected moment.

6.  Who would expect that in my twenty eight years of existence that I would become part of a fandom of the most phenomenal love team of this millennial era. I will try to describe them and you’ll be the judge of how fanatic I am to this so-called AlDub marvel, sensation, wonder, rarity, nonpareil or whatever you call them. Phenomenal indeed.

Because I have work, I don’t get the chance to watch at noon because of time constraints like you need to travel a tricycle to go home for lunch, then eat lunch, after which you prepare again for work. That one hour lunch break is very limited to include watching a television. In one afternoon, me and my brother had eaten  lunch at Tuguegarao City then he encouraged me to watch again the favorite noontime show of the family. (Yep you heard it right, Eat Bulaga is very dear in our daily lives because it’s  our bonding time in the family watching the show. My personal favorite back then was the sugod-bahay and the problem solving. My father’s favorite was their Pinoy Henyo segment. He doesn’t miss any episode of it. He has to stop all his commitments just to watch it.) Back to what my brother has been saying, that I need to watch the video of the newest addition in the EB family. She’s his favorite in terms of dubsmashing. So out of curiosity, I engaged myself one afternoon to watch EB again. In an unexpected surprise, that I got hooked with her versatility and how great her mouth in terms of lip syncing. From that moment on, I was already glued to our television set every Saturday afternoon. On July 16, 2015, in an unexpected moment, AlDub was born. The suplada Yaya Dub was smitten by the bedimpled smile of Alden Richards. I was a witness of the spark that lighted Yaya Dub’s kilig towards Alden. It was Thursday back then but I don’t know why, I was able to watch that episode. I think in what I can remember, I came from a conference and because it was finished early that I was able to come home early and as a privilege,  I need not to go work after. That unexpected surprise may come from nowhere but it made me realized that it was not only Yaya Dub that was smitten with it, I too was bitten by their unexplainable chemistry. I only described how I came to know Yaya Dub, now I’ll explain why I had a silent adoration to Alden Richards. I am a fan of youth oriented shows. From TGIS to Gimik to Click to Tween Hearts.(Alden was part of Tween Hearts.) That’s why when they launch a new drama series in the afternoon entitled Alakdana that I was able to see Alden Richards potential of being a good and dedicated actor. He was not the first lead leading man back then but I already saw a deep potential in his acting. His love team became click that his mother network put up a higher notch and made him the lead actor of a primetime series entitled One True Love. I watched every episode of it. (I got kilig during sweet moments and cried a lot especially when the role of Louise delos Reyes is battling for her life and their love.) As I remember,  it is then that I already call him Tisoy. I fell in love with his charms as a leading man. I also watched him as a secondary lead of My Beloved as the brother of Dingdong Dantes. I loved his role in Mundo Mo’y Akin as Jerome. (Even though, the highlight of the show was about the transformation of an ugly duckling and how physical appearance doesn’t matter in terms of love.) Because of my influence to my mother, (imagine, I get to influence my mother.  Unusual isn’t it? ) she also got hooked with his team up with Marian Rivera in Carmela. She stops her work in the time slot of the show. Even in his short stint as the young Bong Revilla in Indio that I get to feel so proud of him. He was also part of different movies. The ones that I watched was The Road and Tween Hearts Academy. I got excited when he shoot a short Indie film with Nora Aunor.  I know he will gain a lot acting wise with a certified best. I also followed how Alden bloom as a performer in Party Pilipinas then Sunday All-Stars and the present is the Sunday Pinas Saya. Yes I’m an Alden Richards fan from the first day but I’m just a silent fan, observing and being proud to his every achievements. My proudest moment as a fan in terms of his acting career was when he portrayed Jose Rizal in Ilustrado. As a fan also of historical shows, he gave justice to the role or even surpassed my expectations of him. I thought when Ilustrado finished that I became a bit emotional (thinking about it now) because I thought it was the last time that I would be seeing him because I get to read articles about him that it is his last hope to up his career. I was happy when once in awhile that I see him in EB. But thanks to the EB staff especially  to Miss Jenny Ferre for testing the waters between Alden and Yaya Dub. Then boom, like a mushroom that it grew in unexpected place, time and moment.  My every breath is filled with kilig, happiness and gratefulness because of AlDub. I’m not just an AlDub fan that follows the journey of Alden and Yaya Dub in Kalyeserye. I am also one of those fan praying and hoping for a MaineChard lovestory. Even though I’m not in a hurry for the REAL journey of Nicomaine Dei Capili Mendoza and Richard Reyes Faulkerson Jr. but I’m praying to our Lord Almighty for their destiny with each other. The one indespensible thing that I can promise in my being an AlDub fan is that even when there came a time that many will have change of hearts with you that I will still be here supporting the both of you. It may be big words but I will try my best and make an effort na hindi bibitaw at kayo lang talaga hanggang magpakailaman. Forever and eternally.

I may be from the most end of the Philippines, a fan from afar, but my adoration for AlDub will never stop. I am making efforts so that in my own little way will also spread kindness and good vibes as what their aura and actions radiate. They may not know me or I may have a little chance of seeing them in person but that doesn’t hinder me to love and follow them. I consider my being a fan of AlDub as one of or my most unexpected moments because they inspire me to better myself, better my dealings with the people I encounter everyday and most especially better my relationship to our Lord God Almighty.

There you have it. My unexpected moments. If you’ll ask me if what’s the most significant? I think you can figure it out yourself.

 

annjerusalem

Waiting

Listening:

Below are my playlist songs with regards to waiting. These songs were stuck in my head and always playing in my phone in which I don’t know the reason why. Maybe because I first heard Maine Mendoza dubsmash this Tori Kelly song and I like AlDub (Alden & Maine Yaya Dub) that’s why I got interested to this song and wanted to learn how to sing it. The Wait for You song was an old song but when I heard Taj Jackson’s version of it that it gave a new flavor to the song. Music most of the time in unexpected surprise describes what you truly feel inside and the songs below make you believe in waiting again, believe in waiting patiently again, believe to God’s plan and simply wait.

“I Was Made For Loving You”
(Tori Kelly feat. Ed Sheeran)

[Tori Kelly:]
A dangerous plan, just this time
A stranger’s hand clutched in mine
I’ll take this chance, so call me blind
I’ve been waiting all my life
Please don’t scar this young heart
Just take my hand

[Chorus – Tori Kelly:]
I was made for loving you
Even though we may be hopeless hearts just passing through
Every bone screaming I don’t know what we should do
All I know is, darling, I was made for loving you

[Ed Sheeran:]
Hold me close through the night
Don’t let me go, we’ll be alright
Touch my soul and hold it tight
I’ve been waiting all my life
I won’t scar your young heart
Just take my hand

[Chorus – Tori Kelly & Ed Sheeran:]
Cause I was made for loving you
Even though we may be hopeless hearts just passing through
Every bone screaming I don’t know what we should do
All I know is, darling, I was made for loving you

Please don’t go, I’ve been waiting so long
Oh, you don’t even know me at all
But I was made for loving you

[Chorus – Tori Kelly & Ed Sheeran:]
I was made for loving you
Even though we may be hopeless hearts just passing through
Every bone screaming I don’t know what we should do
All I know is, darling, I was made for loving you

“Wait For You”
(Taj Jackson)

[Verse 1]
I never felt nothing in the world like this before
Now I’m missing you and I’m wishing that you would come back through my door
Why did you have to go?
You could have let me know
So now I’m all alone.

Girl you could have stayed but you wouldn’t give me a chance
With you not around it’s a little bit more than I can stand
And all my tears they
Keep running down my face
Why did you turn away?

[Bridge]
So why does your pride make you run and hide?
Are you that afraid of me?
But I know it’s a lie what you keep inside
This is not how you want it to be

[Chorus]
So baby I will wait for you
‘Cause I don’t know what else I can do
Don’t tell me I ran out of time
If it takes the rest of my life
Baby I will wait for you
If you think I’m fine it just ain’t true
I really need you in my life
No matter what I have to do I’ll wait for you

[Verse 2]
It’s been a long time since you called me
(How could you forget about me)
You got me feeling crazy (crazy)
How can you walk away,
Everything stays the same
I just can’t do it baby

What will it take to make you come back
Girl I told you what it is and it just ain’t like that
Why can’t you look at me,
You’re still in love with me
Don’t leave me crying.

[Bridge]
Baby why can’t we just start over again?
Get it back to the way it was
If you give me a chance I can love you right
But you’re telling me it won’t be enough

[Chorus]
So baby I will wait for you
‘Cause I don’t know what else I can do
Don’t tell me I ran out of time
If it takes the rest of my life
Baby I will wait for you
If you think I’m fine it just ain’t true
I really need you in my life
No matter what I have to do I’ll wait for you

[Bridge]
So why does your pride make you run and hide
Are you that afraid of me?
But I know it’s a lie what you’re keeping inside
That’s not how you want it to be

Baby I will wait for you
Baby I will wait for you
If it’s the last thing I do

[Chorus]
Baby I will wait for you
‘Cause I don’t know what else I can do
Don’t tell me I ran out of time
If it takes the rest of my life
Baby I will wait for you
If you think I’m fine it just ain’t true
I really need you in my life
No matter what I have to do I’ll wait for you

I’ll be waiting.

Reading

I’m reading about the meaning of waiting and here it is.

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Watching

Already watched the live telecast of Eat Bulaga  and here I am in an early dawn still watching what happened in the pre-wedding treat of the show to Vic Sotto-Pauleen Nuptial as they say Team Replay. Here’s some of my fave pictures from that episode. I must admit that these photos made me believe in forever again. To Vic-Pauleen ‘s case, true love waits, knows no boundaries and age. To Alden – Maine, in God’s perfect time that He will give you your true love. Just wait for perfect plan. Your destiny has sense of humor and it’s called serendipity.  Both couple found their serendipity. Just have faith to your fate and wait.

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Thoughts

Seeing someone getting married like my cousin who is actually younger than me. Here’s a pic.

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Be like. Buti pa siya.

Yes, I must admit again that I feel old seeing them walk down the aisle, stating their promises and vows in front of our Lord Jesus Christ, sort of jealous (just a little bit). But I’m saying it to myself that I need to patiently wait for my own perfect match in perfect timing and in God’s will.

My thoughts about waiting is that of the postponement or delay of my destiny and to patiently wait what the God-above is will to give. Just hold on to your delayed destiny and never believe in a cancelled serendipity.

Praying

Dear God,

I’m not demanding you to give me my better half in the near future the soonest possible but I’m trying to be ready now. I still thank you for me still being a single. I may not have met him or if I’ve met him already, but I’m ignoring him. Help me decipher what You have planned for me. I am embracing the fact of meeting him in an unexpected surprise just trust me Lord God. For the past years, I acknowledge the fact that I’m not yet ready. My mentality, emotion, and disposition is not yet ready and up to now i think that I’m still unprepared but I’m willing to take the chance if you’ll give it to me. You know who is better for me that’s why I’m letting you decide whom you want for me. I’m just here patiently waiting.

annjerusalem

Mailap

May mga bagay na sadyang mahirap hagilapin
Nasa malapit man ngunit mahirap abutin
Nasa tabi man ngunit malayo ang tingin
Parang narating mo na ngunit madami pang dapat lakbayin

Dapat nga ba kitang hanapin?
O hayaan na lang na ikaw ay dumating?
Doble ang dulot na saya kapag ito’y pinaghirapan
Ngunit kung ika’y ipaglalaban ay madami ang masasaktan.

Tuwing ako ay umiiyak
Mas lalo ka namang humahalakhak
Ngayong nahanap kita
Ang nahanap ko ay para naman sa iba.

Sadyang kay hirap mong mahagilap
Sinasadya mo talagang maging mailap
Ngunit ikaw ay bukod tangi
Sa’yo lang puso ko magsisilbi

annjerusalem

Sunshine

You bring joy to my everyday 
My smile is as big as miles away 
You started to light my life 
You have the spark that inspires. 

There may be clouds that surrounds 
You still brightens my ground 
I may be in the dark 
You bring out my best heart. 

You keep me going 
To another day of pursuing 
Your angelic face radiates 
I forget all the hate 

You help me strive 
You keep me alive 
You keep me divine 
You are my sunshine.

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02:18

Why can’t I sleep? 
Why are you in my dreams? 
In my head you’re popping out 
My mind is shouting your name out loud 

Am I imagining you like me too 
Or just preoccupied with the idea to be with you 
The dream of happiness 
Turned out to be a cold dark nightmares 

Its already 02:18 AM 
I am still wide awake 
I never experienced this before 
All I’m thinking is to be yours

When you realized that you’re actually falling or dreaming to a guy that will never be yours. Still dreaming in a 02:18 AM on November 2, 2014.? Nope but sometimes you’re still imagining what if it happened.

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Dreaming Others Dream

Children are born to be professional of the future 
They become us as they mature 
They are the reminder of us yesterday 
Let’s make our future become the best way 

We are the guardian of what life may become tomorrow 
Let’s join hands and help each other grow 
Sometimes we are dreaming other’s dream 
Now let’s start to imagine our own dream

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Starting Anew

Going out in a coccoon 
Flowers that suddenly bloom 
Coming out in your shell 
A heart who knows how to dwell 

Fire that is burning inside 
Courage to fall in the slide 
Unafraid to walk in the rain 
Shielded with positive brain 

Battling the long thrill of road 
Ignoring the nays and focusing in good 
Understanding life’s imperfection 
Persevering every rough situation 

Cleaning the garbages 
Unconcerned with the bitter grudges 
Free your heart in clots 
Free your life in every clogs 

The sun is shining bright 
The moon and the stars light your night 
Waking up in a morning dew 
Come on let us start anew

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after sunset the sun still shines

A good laugh in the beginning
A little sadness in the ending
The sun shines in the east
The sun sets in the west

I am joyful in gaining  new friends
Camaraderie is always the trend
Our friendship may be juvenile
But every conversation is a smile

The end is not so distant
Goodbye is inevitable
May you get what your life want
And the friendship is a gift from God

Walang hanggang pasasalamatan kayo
Sa ibinahaging kasiyahan sa puso
At sa samahang hindi matatawaran
At sa kaalamang habang buhay ay hindi makakalimutan

Maraming salamat mga kaibigan. Sana ay walang limutan.

Saw this note in my fb account and I was able to publish on December 2, 2014 at 22:35…how time flies really. This was made during the time of the first FTP na naabutan ko in the Police Station. Goodbyes are the hardest especially when the people saying goodbye made a big impact in your life. It may be a bittersweet ending but the most important part are the memories that will stay in our hearts.

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