The Sunday Currently/ 21

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Happy Sunday everyone! How’s your weekend so far? The days gone so fast right? Have you thought of we’re almost done with the half of the first month of 2017? I also spent my weekends at home and did nothing. I needed to relax my brain for I know the coming days will be hectic again at work. But my brain is also telling me to do something worthwhile that’s why here I am again writing. I don’t religiously update or publish much these past few days but I am trying my best to once in awhile visit here. I truly miss writing and I am happy to have purchased some stuffs that would help me rekindle my writing skills.(Naks! Parang totoo and pro) I am also starting my 2017 with making a journal. (This would be my first ever official journal and I am excited about it.)

CURRENTLY 

Reading

 

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As you can see, I am still into my Lang Leav book. I haven’t read all of it but with what I have read already, so far so good. I am enjoying every piece and I am also inspired to do the same in the future. I hope my writing skills will love me the way I love reading especially poetry books. 

Writing
my 21st edition of Sunday Currently

Listening

I am enjoying the newly released singles of Ed Sheeran. I am digging the lyrics and tunes especially the Castle in the Hill

 

Thinking
of what to write in my journal. What is the first step in doing such. (Any suggestions people?)

Smelling
my MS lavender lotion. Super soothing and relaxing smell

Wishing
I could fill my journal with good memories and writings.

Hoping

Despite the stress that my work gives me, I hope I could endure them and with God’s guidance, all of it will fall into place.

Wearing

my spaghetti strap mini dress topped with black fitted sando.

Loving

my new Journal notebook

Wanting

a new *toot! I will divulge everything when I already have it on my hand.

Needing

enough sleep. I think I may be in bed all day but I still lack sleep. How was that batugan? 

Feeling
happy because of life. confused with work and the things my colleague have been doing lately. Sleepy (buona notte!)

Have a great weekdays ahead everyone! Let’s welcome the new week with full of enthusiasm and positive perspective and perception in life. This kind of attitude makes me endure those days that sometimes make you feel dull and weary. And of course God’s guidance too. (Always seek for His guidance and protection) Good night again! Ciao!

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The Sunday Currently/ 20

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So, one week has passed for the year 2017 and so far so good for this new year! I’m optimistic for a better or best version of myself. I’m motivated to find genuine happiness in which it’s a decision that depends only to me. 

CURRENTLY 

Reading
The Universe of Us by Lang Leave (which I purchased via online and just delivered on me literally today. It’s freshly handed and being read.)

Writing
20th edition of my Sunday Currentlies

Listening

The commentaries of A&M in IYAM. (It’s a multitasking Sunday for me. I am super excited reading my Lang book then writing this one plus I am carefully listening to every commentaries in the said DVD. Trivia, my IYAM DVD was at the same time just handed to me today which means, my late Christmas gift to myself came at the same time today. It’s better late than never right?)

Thinking
Of my goals this year in which I want to fulfill and I am praying hard for it.

Smelling
Nothing. Clogged nose or there’s none really.

Wishing
That all my aspirations and dreams in life will come true or fulfilled. Let’s also wish good to everyone.

Hoping
That my thoughts of buying this super mahal thing will push through or worth my money.

Wearing
Army green spaghetti strap mini dress. Super comfy.

Loving

My new purchases. The Lang Leav book and IYAM DVD.

Wanting
To go for a vacation and write poems more.

Needing
Some cough medicine. My mama is already worried on the extent of my cough.

Feeling
Happy, contented and grateful

 

Have a great week ahead. Let’s welcome the coming weeks and months of 2017 with a motive to be genuinely happy, carefree, full of positivism and live in realm.

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The Sunday Currently/ 19

 

It’s Christmas day! Merry Christmas everyone! Happy birthday Papa Jesus. Thank you God for bringing Jesus Christ in our lives. Spend this day with the people you love like your family and friends!

CURRENTLY 

Reading
The Christmas greetings from families and friends plus some twitter updates of mi loves. (you already who they are)

Writing
aside from my 19th edition of the Sunday Currently, I hope I could finish the ones in my draft. Lately, I was so lazy witing or my mojo feels is somewhat lost over these past few days. My previously published posts were somewhat shallow. I hope I can recuperate from it. (hahaha like a disease)

Listening

I’m into Bruno Mars nowadays. I just love his voice. But the Versace on the Floor is consistently popping in my head coz it’s the music from our mini reunion trip with friends

Thinking
of my duty this New Year’s break. I will be alone spending the New Years day but no biggie.

Smelling
the mango peach pie I bought from the fastfood chain we went to. Love anything that is mango flavored.

Wishing
for a better and peaceful remaining days of 2016.

Hoping
I could buy the best *toot! I have been wanting this for more than half decade already. That’s how important this to me.

Wearing
my blue spaghetti strap mini dress

Loving

how I spent Christmas today. I may have slept on the actual salubong or the Christmas Eve Noche Buena (it’s already two years in a row. Huhuhu! Here’s the link of my post when I slept from last year https://annjerusalem.wordpress.com/2015/12/24/slept-at-christmas-eve/) but this day is still worthwhile. I am loving the mini reunion with my friends. Thanks to Richie and Mark Lester for initiating the trip.

Wanting
to go somewhere and thanks to my friends for the short trip. We get to bond even if it’s for a short period of time and unplanned. Those unexpected moments are oftentimes the most worthwhile and most memorable.

Needing
a new camera pls…. who’s a Good Samaritan here. I am saving my money for it. Hope I could buy the soonest. I still need this…hahaha (this is my previous need entry)

Feeling
Happy and contented. Christmas is indeed the most wonderful time of the year because of families and friends. I am happy and grateful today.

Have a great remaining days of 2016 guys! Merry Christmas and A Prosperous New Year! May this day serve as a reminder of how God loves us that He gave His only Begotten Son.

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CHRISTMAS 2016

 

Just a few more hours left and we will be celebrating the day of birth of our Savior Lord Jesus Christ. Most of us I think are already preparing foods and gifts in time for Christmas.

In our family, what we traditionally do is preparing a simple dinner and after dinner, we will be going to our Aunt’s house and mingle with our relatives, my cousins. (More kwento, more fun). Since, I am already working, every Christmas, I was the one in-charge or who gives gifts or presents to my young cousins, nieces and nephews. I have goddaughters and godsons who also come over our house and mostly I give them toys that I bought from previous months because I usually anticipate that many will come and I prepare in advance. But this year, because of my hectic schedule from work like I am already on a Christmas break and I got a message  the other day from our bosses that I need to attend a conference that happened yesterday so, I had no chance to buy gifts for my families and friends. (Whoever decide to come in our house, expect that I cannot give them presents. I am so sorry in advance)

But, aside from the exchanging of gifts because if we say Christmas, what pops out in our head first is always the material things like exchanging of gifts, buying new clothes and many more. We often neglect to remember the true essence of Christmas and that is remembering how God loves us that He made our Lord Jesus Christ human for us and in time save us  from all our sins. Did you know or I already said from my previous posts that my most favorite bible verse is John 3:16 (By the way, this verse was thought by my 98 year old grandmother when I was a child and until now, it is instill in my head) “For God so love the world, that He gave us His only son. That whoever believes in Him will not perish but have everlasting life” This verse serves as a reminder of how God loves us and we should always be a loving person always and always believe in His mighty power.

Christmas for me equates in Love. From God’s love to us to loving others the way He loves us. We should always be grateful still for whatever circumstances that we are facing. We should pray to our Lord for His guidance that we are doing the things the way He planned for us.

Have an amazing Holidaze to all of us. Merry Christmas and a Bountiful New Year everyone!

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Someone greeted me an anniversary today. Yes the picture above says that I am having an anniversary in blogging my thoughts, crazy antics and being a fan for A&M. It has been  a crazy, whirlwind and happy year indeed. I am who I am here. I get to share pieces of my life and I am loving it because in here I have been more open to myself.

Here’s a link of my very first entry here: Yay! https://annjerusalem.wordpress.com/2015/12/23/when-you-wanted-to-say-something/

Conquer

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Me speaking in front of prominent people of our town. Photo credits to the FB of our beloved Board Member of the First District of Cagayan, Ma’am Olive B. Pascual.

Have I written in my previous blog that I have fear of speaking infront of even the smallest group of people? What more if you are tasked to speak to some of the most prominent people of your municipality or even the whole province? What would you feel speaking to people older and wiser than you?

It was already 1:30 in the morning of December 14, 2016 when I was able to come home from a work related report that we needed to rush and finish to pass on that same day. Because of the team effort from our boss and us, we were able to finish it on time. When I arrived home late, sleeping was very hard for me (insomniac moment) so I only got my sleep at around 3:30 in the morning. I intended not to go to work that day but in unexpected circumstance, my phone rang and I got text messages from my boss instructing me on something. Because I’m a diligent and responsible person, I need to do what my boss tell me even though he promised that I need not to go to work to this day.

I was clueless on what will I do this day based from the instruction of my boss plus include my having a lightheadedness and being woozy from the lack of sleep. As per instruction, he said that I’m the only one who knows about the book we are making for each barangays in the municipality (I feel flattered from that kind of compliment. char) so I need to present such infront of the barangay captains who were having a meeting in our Multi-Purpose Hall. My boss asked me if I can do it? Being my own self, I doubted of course so I answered him I don’t know if I can. But he said I can and I know at the back of my head that I needed to brave myself to conquer my fears. I went at the meeting of the Liga ng Mga Barangay late because I needed to read first the presentation I am showing them.  Then came my time to speak when our beloved Board Member entered the room. That added my nervousness of course. What I am worried more is that I will be rattled in stating her name and it will be very embarrassing on my part. Of course, I need to stay calm and not show them how my heart was beating so fast, how my hands are so cold and how I am sweating profusely. I always get that symptoms of nervousness whenever I speak in front of many people and the people I am talking too are the important people of our municipality. Included in my nervousness too is that I need to present them minus the presentation I prepared. This will be an impromptu presentation.

After the presentation, I felt consumed. My energy is as low as you could imagine. But even if that was the case, I still felt proud of myself. I was able to speak to them in my calmest self, I was able to deliver them in the best I could be or in a way they could apprehend what I am saying about, I did not rattle especially the names of these people, and most especially I CONQUERED MY FEAR. I was not to there to impress but to convey the message I want them to understand and I believe that I was able to do it. I am no expert at public speaking but I felt I did well this time. This boosted my confidence a little bit even though it’s already innate in me being timid and still having fears about it. I still am not looking forward on having public engagements or sort of because i am like that but when there come a time that the same will happen, I know I have this kind of experience to back me up.

“It’s alright to have fears because this will remind yourself that you’re also human but there are times that you need to conquer them too so that a better you will come out victorious.”

 

It’s OKAY Not to Be okay 

Earlier this day before I go up from bed, I was scrolling for updates and watching videos. When I am looking for some interesting to watch in YouTube, I came across into a seventeen year old girl doing vlog about the seventeen things she learned for existing in this world for seventeen years.

What caught be is her learning about BEING OKAY NOT TO BE OKAY. By the way have you listen into Jessie J’s song entitled Who You Are? It basically telling us it’s okay not to be okay and we just be through to ourselves. Below will be the lyrics and link of the song. 

“Who You Are”

I stare at my reflection in the mirror:
“Why am I doing this to myself?”
Losing my mind on a tiny error,
I nearly left the real me on the shelf.
No, no, no, no, no…

Don’t lose who you are in the blur of the stars!
Seeing is deceiving, dreaming is believing,
It’s okay not to be okay.
Sometimes it’s hard to follow your heart.
Tears don’t mean you’re losing, everybody’s bruising,
Just be true to who you are!
(who you are [11x])

Brushing my hair—do I look perfect?
I forgot what to do to fit the mould, yeah!
The more I try the less it’s working, yeah
‘Cause everything inside me screams
No, no, no, no, no…

Don’t lose who you are in the blur of the stars!
Seeing is deceiving, dreaming is believing,
It’s okay not to be okay.
Sometimes it’s hard to follow your heart.
But tears don’t mean you’re losing, everybody’s bruising,
There’s nothing wrong with who you are!

Yes, no, egos, fake shows, like whoa!
Just go and leave me alone!
Real talk, real life, good love, goodnight,
With a smile that’s my home!
That’s my home, no…

No, no, no, no, no…

Don’t lose who you are in the blur of the stars!
Seeing is deceiving, dreaming is believing,
It’s okay not to be okay…
Sometimes it’s hard to follow your heart.
Tears don’t mean you’re losing, everybody’s bruising,
Just be true to who you are!
Yeah yeah yeah

My thoughts on it’s okay not to be okay? Well, you must first know yourself more than the people surrounding you know about you. It’s you who is running your own life so you must follow what your heart desires, do the things that make you happy without worrying of what other people will say. Then, when you came to know yourself, you will also know how to embrace your imperfections. Everyone has flaws, weaknesses, scars and challenges that we go through our lives. The mere fact that you were able to embrace and accept those imperfections in life then, you could say to yourself it’s okay not to be okay. When you are going through hardship in your life right now, don’t hesitate to cry about it, you are free to wallow from that pain, it’s also alright to get angry, it’s okay not to be okay, just know how to get back/up. It is you who can decide when to move on or move forward with the situation you’re facing. If many people were making fun of you like your physical appearance, I think it’s a very lame attitude or reason especially to the people who accepted their own flaws and imperfections and they are just wasting their time.

As the song says, It’s okay not to be okay. Everybody bruises, we just have know who we are.