Ann’s Holidaze

It’s been so long since I publish a blog and my last post is very shallow (sabaw. mema lang. mema-lagay). I still haven’t found my mojo. But I will try my best to tell how was my holiday because I definitely ended the season with genuine happiness.

I will start my  story on December 19, 2016. It is the scheduled Christmas party in the office and I was tasked to be the host again. The introvert me of course is pulling me down and I know I need also to hone my speaking skills because I am still a novice at this. What can I do? I need to comply with what my superiors want. And being one of the youngest in the group, I can’t complain. I just need to say yes even if I am not comfortable at this. There’s nothing I can do. Even though that’s the case, I was able to speak decently there. My bravery prevailed yohoo! I may have been the host but I was able to snap some videos and pictures so the link below were some of it. I enjoyed despite my nervousness of actually hosting the party.

I am scheduled to have a Christmas break so, my Christmas vacation came early. After the Christmas party, I was able to take a rest and pull back the energy I consumed from hosting. I may not show it but I don’t know, whenever I am speaking publicly, after it is like my energy just went off. I am thankful that I was given the chance to rest and have my me time. As I was enjoying my vacation, I received a text from my boss informing me of a meeting or conference at Tuguegarao in which nothing I can do but comply.

December 23, 2016 – I was at Tuguegarao for a conference oversight meeting. It may be for compliance purposes but I still enjoyed it. I gained another experience and learning from it. In everything that happened in my life be it happy or sad, in what I want or not, I see things in a brighter and lighter side. I believe that as I exist longer in this world or as I mature, I learned how to appreciate life despite it goes the opposite of what I want.

December 24, 2016 – a day before the Christmas day. I intended to just relax and not prepare anything grandiose this day. It’s been a tradition in the family to just celebrate Christmas day the simplest way. Anyway, this is the birth of our Lord Jesus Christ so, we must dedicate this day living the way he planned and the way He can be proud for us and that is loving the ones He loves and appreciating life and love. As the night came by, I went to my Aunt Cora’s house to visit and greet them and with a little chit chat, I went home immediately too. As what I have said in my previous post, I slept again in the Christmas salubong but the day was not wasted because…

December 25, 2016 – I was watching the television when my phone notified about meeting with my high school classmates/friends. It was the right decision to go because I really missed them so much and I had the chance to update myself about their lives and how we have changed in terms of maturity but we’re still the same. That feeling of just like the old times. Here’s some of the snaps from our unplanned get together which is all worth it.

December 30, 2016 – my parents went to Ilocos and I was left alone in the house because of work-related circumstances. I am on duty for New Year week so, I need to be intact in the municipality. My first night alone in the house felt like sad but not really because I am able to reflect on what happened to me this year. And I need to look forward to a great coming year being independent and a braver self.

December 31, 2016 – because I am alone in the house, I intended to spend my New Year’s Eve at my Aunt Cora’s house. But before that, I went to supermarket to buy fruits especially the round sweet fruits because it is believed that it is lucky for the upcoming year. Of course, we need to prepare foods so, me and my cousin Ate Rebecca experimented to bake a cake in a turbo broiler. It was an epic fail but I enjoyed our bonding more than anything else. My social life is back again with the people close to my heart and that’s what more important. And the bread we prepared is not bad because the kids loved the taste. The New Year Eve came and I spent it with the people close to my heart – my family. I know that it is happier if my parents and brother were around but I still did enjoyed it. I am with the company of happy people.

 

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Group photo with the gang.

Here’s my message to the upcoming year…. – “Happy New Year! Spread love, happiness and light in the world. Let’s look forward to a great 2017.”

January 1, 2017 – Happy first day! Happy monthly reports day! Despite being late to sleep, I still need to wake up early. Thankfully, this day in terms of work related came smooth sailing. I finished my report early then I went back to my Aunt’s house to bond more with my cousins but I slept the whole afternoon of it. I just went out of bed at about 4 in the afternoon already. Then after I ate my late lunch, I went back at home to prepare my parents coming home too. I cooked dinner for them though it’s just a fry food, it was made with love. Naks! I am already asleep when they came back so I just saw then the next day,

January 2, 2016 – It’s the birthday of my Aunt Cora. We usually end the holiday on this day. It is the day wherein all of us in the family gets together. We were the ones who prepares the food to eat for the actual celebration. Of course I was the one who is in-charge of the cake so my father went to buy it. I am also touched coz she used my gift or the dress I gave her eventhough it’s a little bit loose on her, she still went for it and used it. This day is the happiest day in my whole holiday vacation. I get to spent this day with my parents, cousins, nieces, nephews and many more. I genuinely felt the happiness this day.

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These are some of the snap pics of the 69th birthday of Auntie Cora.

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Here’s my message to Auntie Cora’s birthday, “The holidaze will never be complete without this day being celebrated. Happy birthday to the person who is tagged as masungit but we always look up to and always care for us. Happy natal day to the one who acts as the second mother not only to her siblings but also to all of us her nieces and nephews and extended to her apos. Thank you for all the things that you always do in our family. May God continue to bless you with all the desires of your heart. Wishing you good health always. Happy birthday AUNTIE CORA!!!

There you have it, ANN’s HOLIDAZE! I truly enjoyed it and I hope that 2017 will be great to all of us! Happy New Year everyone! Let’s this new year be our motive to find genuine happiness, spread kindness, share love to the people close to our hearts and serve as a blessing to everyone! Spend this year the way you want it in God’s guidance and plan and not the other way around. Let us all claim that this year is our year to be a better of our selves.

 

Conquer

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Me speaking in front of prominent people of our town. Photo credits to the FB of our beloved Board Member of the First District of Cagayan, Ma’am Olive B. Pascual.

Have I written in my previous blog that I have fear of speaking infront of even the smallest group of people? What more if you are tasked to speak to some of the most prominent people of your municipality or even the whole province? What would you feel speaking to people older and wiser than you?

It was already 1:30 in the morning of December 14, 2016 when I was able to come home from a work related report that we needed to rush and finish to pass on that same day. Because of the team effort from our boss and us, we were able to finish it on time. When I arrived home late, sleeping was very hard for me (insomniac moment) so I only got my sleep at around 3:30 in the morning. I intended not to go to work that day but in unexpected circumstance, my phone rang and I got text messages from my boss instructing me on something. Because I’m a diligent and responsible person, I need to do what my boss tell me even though he promised that I need not to go to work to this day.

I was clueless on what will I do this day based from the instruction of my boss plus include my having a lightheadedness and being woozy from the lack of sleep. As per instruction, he said that I’m the only one who knows about the book we are making for each barangays in the municipality (I feel flattered from that kind of compliment. char) so I need to present such infront of the barangay captains who were having a meeting in our Multi-Purpose Hall. My boss asked me if I can do it? Being my own self, I doubted of course so I answered him I don’t know if I can. But he said I can and I know at the back of my head that I needed to brave myself to conquer my fears. I went at the meeting of the Liga ng Mga Barangay late because I needed to read first the presentation I am showing them.  Then came my time to speak when our beloved Board Member entered the room. That added my nervousness of course. What I am worried more is that I will be rattled in stating her name and it will be very embarrassing on my part. Of course, I need to stay calm and not show them how my heart was beating so fast, how my hands are so cold and how I am sweating profusely. I always get that symptoms of nervousness whenever I speak in front of many people and the people I am talking too are the important people of our municipality. Included in my nervousness too is that I need to present them minus the presentation I prepared. This will be an impromptu presentation.

After the presentation, I felt consumed. My energy is as low as you could imagine. But even if that was the case, I still felt proud of myself. I was able to speak to them in my calmest self, I was able to deliver them in the best I could be or in a way they could apprehend what I am saying about, I did not rattle especially the names of these people, and most especially I CONQUERED MY FEAR. I was not to there to impress but to convey the message I want them to understand and I believe that I was able to do it. I am no expert at public speaking but I felt I did well this time. This boosted my confidence a little bit even though it’s already innate in me being timid and still having fears about it. I still am not looking forward on having public engagements or sort of because i am like that but when there come a time that the same will happen, I know I have this kind of experience to back me up.

“It’s alright to have fears because this will remind yourself that you’re also human but there are times that you need to conquer them too so that a better you will come out victorious.”

 

Enteng Kabisote 10

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Attention / Caution:

If you haven’t watched the movie yet, you can skip reading this. If you intend to not watch the movie, then you’ll regret it. I warned you.

Disclaimer:

I am no movie expert. I am just a movie enthusiast and I love Bossing Vic, JoWaPao and AlDub that’s why I chose to watch the movie. And because I love these people and watched the previous edition of the movie, I went there not expecting anything grandeur in terms of its special effects,  the casts because most of them were already present in the previous movie of it. I just went there to laugh and be entertained with the movie.

So here’s some points I want to share with you without giving much of it coz I believe that you still need to see it.

1. The addition of AlDub in the cast – their chemistry is still undeniable and unquestionably super kilig and their short stint in the movie gave the love flavor of the movie. The comedic antics of Maine compliment those with Bossing Vic plus the guy next door look of Alden made the movie pleasing to the eye.

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2. Bohol scenery – I love the scenic views of Bohol that is used in the movie. It made me want to go to Bohol too. Aside from the Chocolate Hills that we know, there’s more to see and look forward to experience it.

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3. No more Satana – of course, if there’s a hero, there should be a villain to antagonize the story and Satana is not included anymore. It’s refreshing that Satana already backed as the good one. Epy Quizon as the main villain is effective in this kind of movie. He just fits the character.

4. Levelled up special effects – as I have said I went in the cinema expecting nothing in terms of the special effects because based from the past movies of it, I think it’s always the downside of it but the EK10 is different. They see to it that they levelled up their game. I like how they incorporated the millennial flavah in the movie. Imagine Enteng is doing live videos of him, making IG like updates and many more. Jpeg

5. The father-son/daughter and grandfather-grandson relationship – I like how this movie still values family. See the movie why I said that.

6. The Abangers – I also like them. Each characters were highlighted and no one was left out. They have their own moments.

7. JoWaPao – eventhough I didn’t like much the hubadhubad powers of Tidora (I’m kinda conservative you know), I love the inclusion of the tres lolas in the movie. They are the comedic side of the movie. Every time they were seen in the screen, I’m laughing out loud much.

8. Remy – I don’t know what’s the real name but he for me is a revelation in the movie and he is the one who touched my heart. I thought when the main characters sort of made fun of him in their conferences and he’s not that known for me is somewhat just an addition but I was wrong and you need to find out what I meant. He for has the best message in the movie.

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9. Bossing’s good looks – even though the gray hair is very evident in the movie to sort of making Enteng old, he still looked damn hot. Whoever is his stylist, you pretty made a good job.Jpeg

10. It’s a secret at the last part of the movie. I just love how Enteng said that he wants that face to be the permanent face of his Faye. We all hope so too Bossing. I felt how you’re so in love.

There you have it, my sort of review of the Enteng Kabisote 10 and the Abangers. You need to watch the movie to experience what I have experienced. As for me, I super enjoyed the movie. It’s really entertaining. It is good for families whose children are addicted to computer games, gadgets and the like for it will teach a lesson about it.

The Good in Bad 

So we were having dinner awhile ago when our current suddenly went off. Brown out is uncontrolled nowadays.

On a brighter side,  I was able to go out of our house (I’m actually  a homebody person. I only go out for work) tonight and luckily it’s not raining (it’s the rainy season already here in the Philippines) So I was able to get a glimpse of the night sky. I get to star gaze.I saw the big dipper and small dipper. I don’t know about you but for me the night sky makes you feel calm. It relaxes your mind. From a whole day of work, it has an energy of de-stressing you and pull away the negativity.

I was about to be pissed off with regards to the brownout awhile ago but as they say, not every disaster is a disaster. Learn to live with it and turn that negative thing into a worthwhile one. Instead of ranting about it and making yourself angry, it let me experience the thing I seldom do. It gave me the opportunity to look at the beauty of nature and appreciate the simplicity of life.

Before the brownout experience, I was reading updates in the social media and what caught me is a tweet as quoted, “How can something so wrong feel so right all along? ” I know that it’s a line in a song. But this question made me think again. How was it really be? But do we always have an answer? That’s how life is – so diversed. The irony of life as they say. In a minute we thought it’s a bad experience then suddenly it’s not. As we say THE GOOD IN BAD….

New World With You

i am scared

going near to an heir

set foot into a new world

as my heart, you hold

 

i am feared

you calm me with care

i am adrift

but my spirit you lift

 

i am afraid

to love you

you reassure

a step further to the leap of faith

 

i get shivers

don’t know where to start

but when you entered my life

this life now, has direction

 

now

i am not scared

i am not feared

i am not afraid

i still get shivers in a positive way

i know i can swim the ocean

in the giant waves and tides

with my greatest journey

my new world with you

my life, my love

 

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The celebration for the 16th Monthsary and the 70th Weeksary may be overshadowed with Missus being pregnant or the story in KS now equates to A&M’s married life but for the love, I will still continue this for it’s a reminder of how a phenomenon occurred, how this phenomenon captivated a nation’s heart and made us/me happy whenever I see them even from afar.

DANCE WITH YOU

I imagined myself walking with you

To the center of the dancing room

We will play our favorite song

And slowly step forward towards each other

In which our hands will perfectly fit together

I imagined us dancing underneath the moonlight

Witnessed by the stars aligned in us

Your hands will hold my waist

As I wrap my arms around your neck

I can feel your every deep breath

And the touch of your hand to my skin

I can smell your favorite perfume

That put a spell on me to love you more

I can hear your heart beat

That rhythmically plays to our favorite tune

Our eyes that sparkle will meet

I  can see all the love you have for me.

As we sway our hips in the same direction

That travels to a united emotion

Our love song will play forever

And we will dance to that music together.

                                                                          {AMLJ}

Happy Birthday MAMA!

November 14, 2016 – The birthday of my mother is one of the most celebrated event in our family. I always make it a point that this day is made special for my Mama and our family.

I went north to buy a cake and a simple gift for her. I hope that in these gestures of mine will make her feel my love and affection towards her. I know that sometimes (or maybe oftentimes) I am a hardheaded daughter and I tend to shut my feelings towards her. I usually do not open myself unto her and we don’t have that mother-daughter bonding like going out for a shopping or conniving with secrets or sharing stories of what is currently happening in our lives but I know in my heart that she’s the most important person in my life. She is my strength.

Even though she is getting older, for me she’s still the most beautiful woman I know because of her good, kind heart. I may be having lost of words of how grateful I am for her, but I really do hope that she feels the importance I am doing just for her. As what I have posted before, I consider her the Best Person in the World (just click on the link beside). I also made a personal letter to her on Mother’s Day which I posted way back May this year. These two post will make a glimpse of how unconditional she have towards us her family, how good of a person she is, how she’s the strength of the Jerusalem family and how she is as a Mother.

In this special day of her, I wish her the best day and years to come, I wish her good health, I wish her happiness in life, I wish her that her heart’s desires will all come true.

 

The Sunday Currently/ 16

So I was feeling under the weather today. The morning breeze is getting colder and is very good for bed weather so, I stayed most of the hours today in bed. I started my day today publishing a video of M’s poem she posted on May 5, 2014. As I have said in my previous posts, I was binged reading her blog most especially her poetry entries. And I was inspired to make them or turn them into a lyric video and one sample is above.  I also did a short trip up north to buy a cake in celebration to the birthday of my Mama. (I will post a separate blog to this one). It’s been a long time since I updated my Sunday Currently entry and I intended to not really post anything of it this time but since I changed my mind, so, here are my currently things…

CURRENTLY 

Reading
My newly purchased Michael Crichton book entitled Congo. I know that it’s already an old book but I have been collecting novels authored by Michael Crichton. Aside from he’s one of my favorite author, I now have eight books of him and I hope I get to finish this book the soonest possible.

Writing
my 16th edition of The Sunday Currently and my blog about my feelings towards my beloved mother dearest who will be having her birthday tomorrow.

Listening

The noise coming from my brother’s room. He is, I think currently watching his newly downloaded movies and watching it to his DIY projector. He’s very clever when it comes to butingting and everything.

 

Thinking
of a new business to venture with. I have a vacant lot nearby the public market and I am thinking of what my interests are so that the business I am planning will be the ones that I really love.

Smelling
the perfume that my brother sprayed on. I really love the perfume’s chocolatey/vanilla-like smell

Wishing
to meet A&M before this year ends. (finger’s crossed)

Hoping
that my wish will all come true. Many will be saying I’m mababaw with my wish but simple things in life that money can buy, hands can’t hold and can only be felt is what makes me the happiest. To be able to take pictures, make my magazine/book collections signed and just be in contact with A&M will make my life complete (as per today because we’ll never know what will happen tomorrow) finger’s crossed again!

Wearing
a blue floral super comfy pambahay dress

Loving

the new Preview magazine – November ish (which is I am aiming to get one. Team Province is always left out) with you know it already who’s in the cover!

Wanting
to have a new video camera (Santa Claus where are you? Hahaha!!!)

Needing
a rebreather from work but I think it will not come soon because of the so many compliance that the HHQs has been demanding

Feeling
a bit burn out from work but because of my everyday updates on A&M, every stress and tiring day suddenly vanish. They really make a huge impact in my life especially towards happiness and inspiration.

Have a great weekdays ahead y’all! Start the week right with positive mind and right attitude. Spread love and happiness to all the people you meet everyday! *wink and flying kiss to all

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Trust

Hello there people! It’s been almost three days since my last update here so hello hello! If you can read it, I entitled this blog as TRUST. I was watching a comedy show awhile ago, and the episode is discussing or surrounding into trust.  I will be stating my side regarding trust and my thoughts when that trust is broken – not that I know a lot about trust coz I know in myself that I don’t have any major trust issues, in my life right now (just a little though). I just know that trust is very important in a relationship – be it in your family, your friends, your partner, your colleague etc. When you decided to have a relationship in whatever level, you also entrusted him/her with your trust – an important ingredient so that that relationship will workout.

Trust is indispensable in all of us.You cannot not talk into someone or ask someone if you have no trust in that person that maybe he/she can answer your query. Trust do exist , it is given freely to a person but trust is also very hard to earn. You may even need a lifetime to gain the trust of the person important to you. That once it was broken or lost that trust that you worked hard for, for so many years can be lost in just a snap or in just a split.

In what I watched, they compared trust into an eraser that in every mistake you make, the eraser as trust is slowly lost or vanishing too. I am aloof to people especially strangers. Meeting new people is consuming for me because I don’t easily give my trust to a stranger and in that sense I have that little trust issue that I made mention at the beginning of this post. Yes, I am having a hard time opening myself to people that even the constant person in my life do not know a lot of me. And the reason about not opening myself to others is still vague but maybe “trust should be hard earned” is one of the reason. I can remember when I was a child, someone promised something and he was not able to fulfill his promise. Maybe that incident brought me in being aloof in opening myself to the public.(I can only be freely open of myself through writing. But that’s another story) Someone made a mistake unto me when I was a child and because of that it was inculcated  in my mind that not everyone can be trusted. You just have to decipher who to trust and who is true to you.

How to gain trust again? Trust is like a glass, you can repair it again when it is broken but you cannot form that glass into its original form. Like trust, once you broke it, you cannot repair/ regain that trust for it already made a mark or scar in your relationship. As cliche as it may sound, “It is easy to  forgive and it is hard to forget.” You can forgive that someone whom cause you pain, whom broke that promise but you can never forget the pain it caused you, you can never put back what have been broken. Gaining trust again maybe hard but being truthful and showing the person that you broke may/will step-by-step give that trust to you again.

That’s it! My sort of thoughts about trust.

Trust is confidence in ourselves, others, and our sense of the Divine. Trust takes a risk; in the absence of certainty, is assumes that goodness, truth, honor, fairness, or ability will prevail. For another person to place trust in us is a wonderful and delicate gift.

Sometimes people trust us to be or do more than we can. Children often trust their parents in this way. An expectation of perfection can make trust fragile and brittle so that it is crushed by disappointment. But if we honor trust as a gift and if we honor the vulnerability of the giver, trust can grow through and beyond disappointments.

Trust becomes resilient when it is grounded in reality – when it recognizes the imperfections and yet sees the through-line of goodness that lies beneath and beyond them.

 

Ann’s Trip (vol. 2)

Hey! Hey! Hey! I’m back with Ann’s trip and I just want to share some of the songs I have been listening lately. I am BINGE listening to covers of various artist and it just lifts me in different level of emotions. Below are the list of some of my favorites:

  1. Bruno Mars – 24K Magic (SING OFF vs. Alex Aiono) published by Conor Maynard

Alex Aiono and Conor Maynard is very clever of using Bruno Mars’ 24K Magic song as their base of various songs they covered from the past. I enjoyed every song they included in it.

 

2. Ignition x Don’t Mind – R. Kelly & Kent Jones (William Singe Mashup Cover)

I love the mash-up of songs with RNB flavah. There’s a certain sexiness when they sing such kind of songs. There’s a different flow that tingles your body

3. The Great Movie Medley – Voctave

These song compilation just brings back good memory from childhood. By the way, I got teary-eyed to the Home Alone theme song. The memory of being away from your family and when you meet again, that got me.

4. The Scientist – Coldplay (INSTRUMENTAL Fingerstyle guitar cover) [+ TABS] and Magic – Coldplay – Violin and Guitar Cover – Daniel Jang

The Scientist and Magic by Coldplay song for me is sort of my alone time song and being done an instrumental version just bring so much feels.

5. Yellow (Coldplay) – violin cover by Daniel Jang

When I heard this instrumental version of Yellow by Coldplay, I immediately fell in love with it. I am actually emotional as I write this one. How I love this song is beyond words.

That’s it. Whenever I am away from work, I am busy with these songs. I just love music/ songs in general (nothing in particular genre). They put in words and sounds the feeling you actually feel at the moment. Hope you enjoy my list as much as I enjoy listing them. If you have any suggestions, feel free to comment in the comment box. Any music you want me to hear is highly recognized and appreciated.